I am stifled and tired but most of all revolted at myself. Against my better judgement I still make excuses and put things off then tell myself that it is ok and I still have time day after day after day when I know it isn’t right and when things go wrong I blame the whole fucking world instead of myself and one reason or another people put up with me time and again which doesn’t even make any sense at all.

I fucking hate myself for being so selfish.