Sigh, why doesn't anything work out for me? Why must I be the person who is left out? Why can't I smile at others genuinely? Why is life so fucked up? I refuse to let go of the past, I know I need to, but I can't. I feel stuck, like I'm falling into the endless deep, knowing I'll just drag someone down if I ever reach out. Fuck. Why can't I choose?

This is some bloody joke. Must have been so ironic.