Thrusting back and forth, I've been feeling as if nothing else mattered.
For one, You broke our promise, so don't expect me to keep them either.

Secondly, I'm not the same Girl you once knew, people change. You did, just as I did.

Thirdly, don't believe me, seriously. I lie, for the sake of faking that smile. I bet you didn't know how much pain I'm feeling inside, each time you see a smile on my face.

Fouth, I don't need anyone's pity. I'm fine with you hating me, with you ostracizing me. Just leave my friends alone, they need not be involved.

Fifth, if you decided to leave, just FUCKING leave! I don't want you to hang around and make a bloody joke out of my pathatic life.

Sixth, life has been a Bloody joke, if you didn't know. I've been sick, yet no one knows. The fever, the hunger pangs, yet unable to eat. Stupid weakling of a stomach.

Seventh, I can't keep promises, I'm sorry, I had to break our promise. Give me time, I'm sure it'll pass.

Eighth, She's right, I said I was willing for a change, I said I wanted to. But hey, isn't everyone just as afraid of a change as I am? You can't blame me entirely, it's just how things work.

Ninth, I don't know what am I suppose to do now, I can't decide. I want to make a decision, and make it fast. But I don't want to have to regret it later, because I made a hasty decision.

Lastly, how is it that you can accept life, for life? What is it that you are able to see, that I can't? How many times must I go through the same procedure? For what purpose?