Happy New Year! Its finally 2010.
I hoped that this will be a better year than 2009.

Okay. Now that that's over, lets proceed on to something more 'normal'.

2010.
A new year. A new beginning. A new start.
In 2009, I've been running away from reality, chasing after nothing...
It has always been like this. I don't know what I could should do anymore.
I feel so lost. So empty.
Nothing. Just simply.... Nothing.
It felt like everything was just crashing down. Falling onto me.
Yet, I'm lying there, motionless.
Feeling no need to run away from the dangers, knowing that it wont matter either way.
Just letting everything fall onto me. Letting myself be buried.
Countering the pain inside, by hurting myself physically.
'Cuz I don't care anymore. Whatever happens to me.
All I can feel is the pain inside. Nothing else.
That's why it hurts.